Sunday, May 4, 2008

"So many people live withing unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun." --Chris "Alex Supertramp" McCandless

Today was my Senior Flute recital... Next week I graduate... Life is going to change... I don't know what will happen in the next months ahead. But I do know that I don't want to lose my adventure.

I have to make some decisions soon, and unfortunately, either decision I make will make someone unhappy... And that is never easy... I have to wonder what the best decision is for me... It isn't clear cut, it isn't shouting out to me, and I just want to be happy... But what is happy?? It seems that I can be happy with whatever situation I am presented with, but could that mean I haven't found true happiness? Maybe because I don't know what happiness is?

Or maybe I do know happiness... Maybe I know it better than other people that I'm not willing to sacrifice it for something I don't love...

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